Monday, June 11, 2007
1:28 am
You know, I think that right from the beginning, God knew what I'd be struggling with. And so He's provided me with an example. An example I can go back to again and again. An example of devotion...an example of passion...fullness...abandonment...reckless worship.
I really just want to let go of so many things.
I want to throw myself into God's hands.
He will consume me, if I let him...Right now, I just need to stop making everything about me.
I need to hunger for the word of God.
I need to desire it more than
anything.
Ahhhhh there's just so much tension inside between who I am and who I could be.
(Quoting switchfoot! haha)
Lately I've just been feeling a need to take it deeper.
To get past skimming the surface...
I've been very much an onlooker.
I've been a talker.
I talk too much.
I really really really want to get out of this.
It's such a struggle!!
Please pray for me, if you're reading this...
God works miracles through prayer...
And it would certainly take a miracle to transform a heart like mine.
I need to stop taking things for granted.
I want to run after Jesus with all my might. However that is supposed to work. Ahhh I have so much to learn.