Sunday, December 10, 2006
11:59 pm
You are witnessing something that has not happened in a verry long time. About 2 years? Mel is blogging for the 3rd time in a day. And the significance of this? Nothing at all. I was just saying.
But like I said, today has been an absolutely scheiße day. (I think I like this word.) I woke up at 2pm, got out of bed at 3pm, tried to play the piano but my fingers wouldn't work. Then I went upstairs and watched porto vs arsenal which ended in a draw, very much symbolic of my day: activity without outcome. Anyway. After walking up and down a few times and finding nothing to do, I decided to go for a run. I ran for about 15 minutes and then cursed myself for leaving my asics runners in my locker, cos my nikes were killing my feet. So then I stopped running and wandered aimlessly for another 20 minutes before walking back home. After which I vacuumed the floor, then ate dinner, then watched TV from about 8 to 11. And now I have about 2 washing loads of ironing to do.
So what is exactly so scheiße about this day? Right now you're probably thinking - c'mon, that's about as scheiße as any other day - ie - completely normal.
Well here's why I think today was scheiße. It's the same reason that yesterday was scheiße, and the day before, and the day before. Actually, I change my mind. Why would I tell you? I don't get this at all. What in the world am I doing to myself?
Do I want to talk about things? Yes, I think so. Do I want to talk about it with you? No. Why not? I'm scared. Scared of what? Scared of myself.