Sunday, December 17, 2006
10:55 pm
Yeah sorry guys. So much for blogging more, I know. I really did intend to. I just...didn't. Quite typical of me, which you would know already if you know me at all.
Anyway, I feel so bad for not going to church tonight. I haven't been in ages, and besides that, today was Steve's farewell service. I also told Tim I would go. But Mum was like no, we are going out for dinner, and I couldn't really argue in front of Alex and Ling...so...so yeah.
But church has become a weird thing for me I guess. I remember how I always used to look forward to church. Now there's more...reluctance. I suppose I've never felt like I've truly belonged to any church. I've always managed to squeeze my way in, but at the back of my mind I've always known that my presence is superfluous. I guess now I'm hitting the wall and giving up. I hate to say this, but I am just tired of superficial chatter.
Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's because I suck at relationships in general.