Thursday, October 26, 2006
10:43 pm
Ok so I have my piano exam tomorrow morning. The last piano exam I took was 6 years ago, so really, it just feels like I've never done a music practical exam before. I really hope my fingers will work tomorrow morning.
Anyway, I was just looking through friendster again, I haven't been there in ages. Only logged in again just now when I got another update - "it's richie's birthday today!" - and I realised that I barely remember who richie is and by now he probably wouldn't remember me either...and then I browsed through the rest of my Friends list and I realised...gosh...I haven't spoken to her in 5 years, haven't seen him in 4 years - and these were people I was once close to. I mean...of course I know we've all drifted, but nothing takes you aback like confrontation with those memories. I can hardly believe that I wrote some of the things I wrote. Haha...it's crazy.
Now I wish I'd done more catching up with people in the holidays. I really am terrible at keeping in touch, probably more to my detriment than to my friends'. I wonder if I ever will get better at this maintaining the relationship thing, cos I suck so bad at relationships. With friends, family, God - thank goodness there is no boy to speak of cos I know I'd just hurt him.
Ok this isn't the time for this I need to study general knowledge for my music and the vocabulary/grammer for my jap test tomorrow! It's going to be such a long day!