Sunday, August 20, 2006
1:26 am
After today, here is the work still left:
* english essay on realism
* english essay on post-colonial and feminist reading of othello
* legal studies essay on women
* jap writing task
* 4 exercises of maths
* prep for maths test on tuesday
* legal studies portfolio
Yeah. I think that list explains itself.
Worries about all that stuff poke in here and there amongst all these other thoughts that have been driving me crazy these past few days. I'm really needing to talk. I wish I dared. And I wish I had the time.
God. All these pointless, repetitive conversations. All these silent questions. All these things that need to be expressed but just refuse to take a form.
All these regrets.
All this
missing.
All these withering friendships.
All these
whys and
hows.
All this doubting mixed in with the hoping.
All this longing.
I'm so in need of you but I'm so scared of you but I act like I don't think much of you and yet I'm always thinking about you but it seems like I don't care about you when really, really, you know I do.
I'm just scared, that's all. Of you, and of all these things. But I just...I really really need to see you.