There are so many people I wish I could be. I wish I could be even just a little more like them. More genuine. More patient. More beautiful. More dedicated. More anything but me because I never get anything right. Because my weaknesses are just so obvious and so overbearing. Because I'm not strong. Not wise. Not mature. Not pretty. Not disciplined. Not hardworking. Not dedicated enough. I blame myself too much. Trust others too little. It's just so easy to spot weakness in myself. When I look at some other people, even when I know that don't have everything together, I just wish sometimes that I had their dispositions, that I could trust God as much as they do, that I could comfort others as much as they comfort me, that I could hold my friendships together better, that I could be as unafraid as they are.