Friday, May 19, 2006
12:07 am
I've been thinking alot about what I want to do with my life once I finish school. I'm really eager to finish...and I don't think that's a particularly good thing, cos I know God wants to use me even now. I feel like I'm in the transition stage, the training stage, that nothing I'm doing now is particularly significant. So if you're reading this, pray for me, pray that I can live more fully for him in the present, cos that's really where I'll ever be. Thank you =)
About my future though, I've been thinking...I don't know if I want to live the way I'm living now. I don't want to do a 9-to-5 job in the same way I go to school from 8 to 3, you know? I mean...I know I could. I could probably do that and support myself to live reasonably comfortably. (I hope I have at least that potential, anyway.)
But yea...somehow I feel like it would be a waste of my life. How could I live in luxury, so meaninglessly. How could I live comfortably with the thought that there are people in the world who just hope for enough food to stay alive for one more day? How can I, when there are people who suffer endlessly because they cannot afford ONE simple, fairly cheap surgery that will save them all this pain and social stigma for the rest of their lives?
And here we are...getting the latest gadgets, spending immense amounts of money on such worthless things. I saw some statistic ages ago. It just shocked me beyond belief: The profit of the perfume industry for just, was it, ONE year, was enough to lift the ENTIRE third world out of hunger. Just think about that! Perfume! That's where people would rather put their money! Urgh it just makes you so disappointed with the human race! But if I think about it, I'm one those people I disapprove of.
Man...I wish I could do something. There is just too much that is wrong with the world. I know I'm just one person. I know I probably couldn't do too much at all. But if my efforts are going to go anywhere, I want them to go towards helping those who need it, rather than finding ways to satisfy pampered people who just get harder and harder to please.
A child in Kenya.
This picture was taken THIS year.
An Iraqi child watching his mother get killed.