Wednesday, May 17, 2006
10:17 pm
I had a really strange dream last night.
It had three friends in it, none of whom know each other. These three friends were, at different points in my life, my closest friends. It seems I went through so much with each of them.
When I woke, I was so sad to realise...these three friendships have all changed so completely. They've all turned cold, each in its own way. The very people I'd shared some of the best parts of my life with...the very people I'd relied so much on, the very people who'd relied so much on me...they've just...faded out of my life. We all lead such different lives now. We're all such different people.
I haven't thought about this for a while now...I guess I try to put it out of my mind. The last time I spoke to each of them (a long while ago), the people I found were so foreign to me that I didn't quite know how to cope. They didn't really seem to care. They seemed unresponsive, detached - that hurt. I suppose they would rather cherish sweet memories rather than dig up the past to find the bitterness of decay. Maybe I should too?
Dreams...what are they? How do they just dig up memories you don't even know you still have?