Saturday, April 08, 2006
10:58 pm
Out of all the things I
could be good at, I have to be exceedingly good at the one thing I should
not be good at: procrastination. I've been driving myself crazy. I can't get ANYTHING done. And Time waits for no man - or woman.
So much for Time not waiting. I don't even know what I'm rushing for. What's the hurry? Why does everything have to happen so quickly?
Man...is this all life is? Struggling to meet deadlines, dragging myself from one activity to the next? Feeling ugly, trying to convince myself that I'm not worthless. Desperately missing someone I've never met. Trying to fill in a shapeless gap. God what am I doing?
I feel like I'm on some perpetual moodswing. When will I come back down again? When will things be normal again? Rather, when will 'normal' stop being this frustrating? When is he gonna come back and hold me and give me something worth living for