Friday, February 03, 2006
1:15 am
And school has started...
I'm really enjoying the new school so far! The girls were so welcoming I was a bit shocked! Haha...yea the whole lot of them are lovely people. I've managed to retain about 3 quarters of the names I've heard...pretty good eh. :P Don't really know my way around the school quite yet but I'm getting there! :)
I've been feeling a bit urgh underneath the fascade...it feels like God has been hiding Himself from me for some reason. But still He has been so faithful to me, even though I can't feel Him. I know He's still here, still my guide. I just can't stand being away from Him. I can't be happy without Him. Can't smile without Him! I hate how it's me who walks away from Him SO often. He doesn't just take me back every time. He
draws me back. He
allures me back. I mean what is with this God? How can You love me? What is there to love??
I was thinking of what I wrote in my post a couple of weeks ago...about how words are meaningless if they're not accompanied by action. Who wouldn't rather be
shown they are loved than just told? I figured God would rather be shown too. So I've decided...everytime I need to tell Him I love Him, I'm gonna
show Him instead.