Sunday, January 15, 2006
1:13 am
Hihi.
I'm feeling pretty tired now. Had work at 12.30 today and I actually had to set the alarm to get up. Working again tomorrow. It's quite tiring actually, but it doesn't seem so bad when I'm working...it's only when I get home when that giant wave of lethargy suddenly sweeps over me... Oh Well I'm very consoled by the money though. Barry (my boss) just paid me for all my shifts next week. Hundred and thirty-three bucks cha-ching!!
I've been so busy working these few weeks I haven't really spent time catching up with friends or anything. I hate how sometimes you get really close to someone, and you think they're one of your best friends, and then suddenly there's just this big rift and you don't have much to talk about anymore. I don't get it. What happens?
I'm kinda starting to think it's just me...probably because I always tend to blame myself first when anything happens. But I think this happens to me more than the average person, so I'm justified in thinking that it's me. I mean, I think I know what my problem is and I know I'm getting better I just can't seem to save what I ruined. Well not
ruined, but you know.
Don't get the wrong idea this isn't exactly a big big load on me. I just thought of it when I realised that I really miss those times we had.
It's time to build bridges. I need to stop giving up on me, or I'm gonna keep letting people down.
I'm kinda glad not many people read this, now. Hehe =)
You only imagine things when they're not there.