Tuesday, June 07, 2005
6:55 pm
Dear Blogger,
I am a wreck. I can hear a constant whirring in my head. It feels like there is an imaginary drill boring a hole into my brain. My extreme lack of sleep is turning me into a walking zombie. I have had about five hours of sleep over three days. I think I need a break now.
I cannot help worrying about a few friends dear to me. They have been acting mysteriously. I don't understand what is happening and I am starting to wonder if I need to, or if they need me. I'm not sure what I should do. I just pray that things are better than they seem.
I am feeling so drained, but I know I should continue to pour. It is taking so much and I'm not sure if it even counts cos I have a bad feeling I'm not even doing it right. But I really do want to. He knows it, and I suppose it has to be enough for me.
I really am starting to resent the way I always have so much to say, but no way to say it, and no way of getting the other person to realise that. I feel so stuck. It always seems so unbelievably hopeless.
No. Bad mindset. There is always hope.
Writing Folder is finally over. It's kinda funny, but I'm not feeling that big relief I thought I'd feel. Just as well too, because we're starting to get reloaded with assignments again. Yay.
The holidays will be here in three weeks. I can't wait for a chance to get back on my feet.
(Thank you Penny.)