Wednesday, July 28, 2004
9:37 pm
i wanted you to know
that i love the way you laugh..
just erased a whole lot of rubbish.
...you've gone away
you don't feel me anymore
ok come on.
think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts
there's absolutely no point in hurting yourself longterm just because it helps you escape from this shortterm. wake up.
but what about now? i can't not think about it.
oh yes you can. with god's help you can do anything.
but. but i can't bear to. though i want to. i mean i don't want to, but i want to! oh god. i don't even know what i want anymore.
it doesn't matter what YOU want remember? what matters is what HE wants. and that's what's best for you. and that's what you're going to do.
oh no what am i doing again
-NEVER MIND!!!!!!!-
think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts...
i know you think i'm crazy.
that's okay.