Tuesday, November 04, 2003
8:54 pm
hi. long time no blog. i've become quite bored with blogging. what does it do for you anyway? like, nothing. but oh well. haha. at least i can 'talk' to something when no one is at home, like now.
anyway! i've made some more new friends! (= it's after the exams which reminds me why i like it after the exams. haha. oh. i got my hair cut today. my mum really likes my 'new hair' but this fringe is really starting to irritate me. haha. and oh yeah! i met shumei again today at scotts. first time since like...2 years? she still looks the same tho. just taller. not fair.
know what? everything seems to be getting better for me now. i'm starting to change my mind about my wanting to go to australia. i'm starting to hope my last application to that aus sch won't go through. oh fickle fickle me.
okay sorry. my negativity surfaces automatically. something tells me things won't exactly be going the way i want them to (just like during netball carn when sometimes my hands won't work with my will). i might end up in a lousy class with bitchy people and my old lonely situation. i will probably flunk everything next year. and tmr after i get my lousy report book i have to make a copy of my lousy results for miss zhang, who will then write me a lousy report to submit to the school. and
then i will get kicked out and transferred to a lousy school and afterwards when i reapply for australia i will only be able to make it to another lousy school. hmm. maybe i
should go to australia now.
plus. this particular day and this particular person makes me feel heartbroken, although something else is telling me i am probably imagining it and i am just doing this to myself to create more drama in my life.
okay. that's enough negativity for today. erm. oh yeah. have been watching so many dance movies recently. a time for dancing, centre stage, save the last dance. kinda makes me wish (wish! that is a dangerous word. *grins at drea and jan*) that i didn't quit ballet. it was actually quite fun. haha. oh well.